I cannot believe that I am a full time entrepreneur. . .
I have always known that this day would come but I pictured it being a little different. I pictured myself a little older, turning in my two weeks notice, bursting with so much excitement because it was finally “time”. Time for me to fully walk in my purpose, time to go to the next level in my life, time to finally have my moment. I knew that when the “time” was right God would let me know and the transition would be smooth sailing. Wrong.
In my spiritual walk with God I’ve realized a couple of things: 1) Just because God plans to give something to us does not mean that it will always be sunshine and rainbows. 2) You have to have faith (especially when it comes to following your purpose) and the ability clearly hear God and act accordingly. Let me repeat number two: “You have to have faith and the ability to hear God and act accordingly.” It was because of these two things that I was able to discern that it was “time” and it is because of these two things I have the “time” to write this blog post.
Here is my crazy yet somewhat amazing story . . .
Breyana are you listening? It’s me! God..
If you really know me then you know that I can be a bit.. urmm.. hard headed. It is one of my key traits and it is also one of my most lovable ones. For two years, I was blessed with an amazing job that provided me with: good money, a lot of paid time off, prestige (this was a well known health care company), amongst other things. In spite of all of this I was still working on my business because 1) this is my calling and 2) this is not where I pictured myself 5-10 years down the road. I had the realization (and now that I think about it.. confirmation) that this is not where I pictured myself long term last year. This job wasn’t aligning with my goals, my co workers were driving me crazy, and I had lost the motivation to go to work. What is so significant is that my first year of service there was the complete opposite.. I loved it (pay attention to this part of the story because it’s important).
“You have to have faith, the ability to hear God, and act accordingly.”
It is important to note that I am a person who can withstand a lot of spiritual and mental pain so somehow I was able to put up with all of this crap for a whole year and it ended up being worth it (keep reading). Last year, as I was going through this, I kept getting signs from God telling me that it was “time” (much how I did when he told me to start my business.. it’s crazy because I just got this revelation). He would speak to me through strangers, my friends and family, I would see articles, quotes, and stories on social media.. and I would still ignore it. Why? Because I was comfortable. Although I was going through pure hell at my job my flesh always told me that I had it made, especially for my age, at this job. So spiritually, I was receiving what God told me but in the flesh I was thinking from a worldly perspective.
Some may think that I blocked my blessings and others may think I am about to say that I blocked my blessings. Well both conclusions are wrong. Listen to this, because I wasn’t being obedient and taking the leap like he told me to.. he pushed me. Yes, you read that right, he pushed me. Physically and spiritually. This year in January (what would’ve been my third year if I stayed) my entire department got fired. The entire department y’all. Not one.. not two.. but everyone. From the director to the rest of the workers.
Was I upset? No. Was I angry? No. Was I relieved, happy, and filled with the Holy Ghost? Yes. How you ask? Because God set me free. Weeks before then on separate occasions my mom, myself, and my husband prophesied on everyone being fired so I already knew what was coming (and that was God’s wrath because there were some things that were going on that were unbelievable). Everyone was filled with sadness, sorrow, and tears but me on the other hand, I walked in there like a ray of sunshine collecting all of my belongings off of my desk HAPPY (isn’t it nice to confuse demons?). The very next day I received a call that I was clear to start my job as a Visual Merchandiser (a job that I have been dreaming about for quite some time).
Some Things Are Only With You For A Season . .
I started my job as a Visual Merchandiser in February of this year and I left this month. It isn’t like me to leave so soon, but I left because I felt the exact same way I did at my previous job..except this time it felt a little bit different. I felt that I learned everything that I needed to learn, that I am now equipped to run my business efficiently, and the experience has humbled me greatly. I appreciate the opportunity because I learned so much in so little time. It’s actually amazing because the Holy Spirit just revealed to me that he put me in a fast pace environment so that I could learn quickly and learn how to think quickly and efficiently (only those who know me know the significance of me being put in a fast pace environment). It’s been a year full of twist and turns but I thank God for it all.
Call Me Ms. Entrepreneur . .
I have only been a full time entrepreneur for two days but there is one thing that I know.. this was well deserved and I don’t plan on going back. When I called my job and told them that I quit I felt a range of fleshly emotions: uncertainty and fear of the unknown but I also felt a spiritual one..peace. Today is my first day working for myself and I can’t explain how much joy and happiness that it brings me. I am determined with all of the power in me to build something great.. something monumental. Cheers to a new beginning and I cannot wait to share my journey and wisdom with all of you.
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